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The Fear of Covid19

I remember in January when I first heard of Covid19. Like many others, I was curious to know more about the new virus so I began my research. I dug deep into the details of what I could find on the internet. Then, I had mixed emotions with all of the news that I stumbled upon. Maybe as some said, it was just a quick phase, a conspiracy theory, an attack from the devil, the world finally coming to an end or God’s wrath upon the people of the world. Despite all the theories, my quest for more information (or maybe consoling news) continued but my heart started racing when I began to hear of the increasing cases happening in China. I became fearful and started to panic. My eyes were glued to the news more than they were in my studies, bible or even the present. I was the news reporter in my house, announcing the number of cases that were reported each day. My mind had calculated the possible future for this new outbreak. The media didn’t make it any better because along with the news about this new virus were other horrifying news being reported everywhere from sudden deaths to accidents, explosions, you name it. Even though some of these news were things that happened more often than reported, I started to drown in anxiety.  

I was really looking forward to 2020 because this was the first time in a long time that I was finally excited to make plans and goals because I had great expectations for the year but there I was, already drowning in the information that I thought would thwart my peace and plans. I started to fear 2020, the possibility of a loved one getting infected and losing a loved one again. It almost felt like it would be a death sentence once you got infected even though I knew some information about the virus. The thoughts were overwhelming but I was somehow reassured that all would be well and I trusted that God would take control. However, I couldn’t sleep one night because of all the news so I called my mum. We talked for a while, prayed and then I went to bed. The next morning when I woke up, I was led to read Psalm 91 and I felt much better. His words consoled me and I thought that would be it. I thought the virus would eventually subside and disappear that same January but I was wrong.

Two months later, at least 170 countries & territories are now affected, and even though there are cases increasing each day, thankfully, not a single bone in my body has prickled in pure horror like it previously did. This is not because I don’t understand the severity of this pandemic or see the increasing cases and reports happening all over the world but because I trust that God didn’t lose control over every situation. I chose to no longer harbour fear because I know that this too shall pass. Fear tries to creep in now and then but I’m learning to fight it with God’s words and promises. Sometimes it’s easier said than done especially because fear is a basic human emotion and if a previous fear of yours became a reality, it’s hard to believe the battle with fear can even be won but we can overcome it.

There are so many people experiencing different emotions right now, even beyond the smiles and laughter and the devil has seen so many tools to use this period, from fear to anxiety, panic, ignorance, anger and distraction. You may also be worried about those plans, that job, that start-up, that celebration, the conceivable future. For some, it probably hasn’t hit yet but in case you fall into any category, you can cast all your worries to God (something I’m learning to do more often) and use this time to reflect, draw closer to Him and seek to understand him. We must also not think that our faith is useless in these times. To pray is not ignorance and to call upon God in times like this is not obsolete. May God comfort and strengthen all who have been directly affected by this virus, lost a loved one in the process or by any other means.

Please stay safe, remain informed, listen to the health and government authorities, reach out to loved ones, create good habits and hobbies but most importantly let us pray for the world and keep God closer. May God see us all through this uncertainty in Jesus’ name. Amen! ?? 

“Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday”

(Psalms 91:6 NLT).

“If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home”

(Psalms 91:9-10 NLT).

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind”

(2 Timothy 1:7 KJV).

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope”

(Jeremiah 29:11 NLT).

“And this hope (of salvation) will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love”

(Romans 5:5 NLT).

I know it has been a while guys but I decided to check up on you and to drop this just in case anyone needed it. I wasn’t sure if I was going to post this but I felt the need to so I hope this meets you well. How have you been? And how are you handling the current situation?

Benita Okafor

Benita Okafor is a Content Creator whose brand is based on Storytelling, Food & Lifestyle Blogging.

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